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07:02 pm
[Link] | we long for the things we cant have.....we build up a world that so perfect that that there will never be a day we see our perfect world....
so just smile and live with it.....why choose to be unhappy
Current Mood:  content
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03:39 pm
[Link] | i love mikey nunez!!!!!!!
i miss him.......♥
Current Mood:  crushed
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08:47 am
[Link] | hello everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i miss danny and i miss hanging out with nina i miss our late nights walking around i miss ninas house i miss danny being at eastwood i miss cleaning the house i miss sitting around having nothing to do i miss the summer i miss cori i miss efrain i miss the never ending nights when everyone would go to my house and hang out and get drunk and have fun fun fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Current Mood:  miss the days of our lives
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09:15 am
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yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! me and mikey
Hello everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! today I hope will be a very awesome day. MIKEY AND I have been together for six months today wooooooooowww half a year omygoodness I love it I love him oh so very much!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM SUPER HAPPY KISSES
Current Mood:  i love him
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09:50 am
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09:15 am
[Link] | hello everyone!!!!!! how has everyone been as for me I guess ok. Me and Mikey are doing just grand I heart him sooo much he is my favorite. Well I miss my friend Danny a lot a lot he was always there when I needed him. And I miss my friend Efrain but I guess he just wants to live in the past. Right now at home things aren’t to good I hate being there but I have no were else to go, I guess I really messed up but whatever I don’t even want to look at my mom. She the meanest person on this planet. My holidays are gonna suck this year only because my mom doesn’t really care whatever I will prove her lame ass wrong. ok well bye bye everyone
love erika
Current Mood: sad
Current Music: nothing my feet are cold
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03:49 pm
[Link] | happy birthday efrain hope all your wishes come ture kk i love you with all me heart muah!!!! bff
Current Mood:  high lol ya righ
Current Music: the early november
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01:48 am
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you guys better do it!!!!!!!!!!!!! or i will be super sad
1. Reply with your name and I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what band/song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST. It is written!!!
Current Mood: i know mikey loves me
Current Music: nothing
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01:08 pm
[Link] | Don’t whisper false interments in my ear and make me feel wanted when all your doing is making up a un real dream, And that dream takes forever for me to realize it was all a lie.
But I wish I never had woken up to my dream
Because now I look back and I see it as a nightmare.
“I love you” what’s dose I love you mean what do you feel when someone tells you I love you how do know they mean it how do you know when someone is showing love for you
I love you is just three words and that’s how you made me picture it you made it seem that way
Current Mood: crushed
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02:32 pm
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la la la la la whats new? right!!!!
Efrain came over yesterday!!!!!!
It was fun I guess the whole time I wanted to cry but I wouldn’t let a single tear roll down my face all I did was laugh and smile thinking I can make myself happy. Nothings the same nor do I think it will ever be it makes me sad really sad but I decided not to cry over it any more it hasn’t help nor will it. I guess there’s some things you try to explain but no one will ever understand. I see it now I understand I am so sorry I didn’t see sooner I am sorry for everything I did to you and everything I didn’t do. Sorry I wasn’t the best friend you wanted me to be sorry I didn’t understand, but now I know exactly how you felt and it tears me up inside that I put you through that pain, but I ask myself this if you really loved someone so much and there mistakes broke your heart would you want them to feel the same pain you did would you want them to be sad the way you were? I wonder. I guess everything happens for a reason and what comes around goes around, geeeez that sucks., but what really sucks is when everything comes back to you twice as hard and when you complain about it all the other person dose is through your mistakes right back in your face comparing the difference. There’s so much surrounding me so much love, but I still feel so very much alone.
So for now on Efrain I am going to let you be happy and no tell you much about me anymore not tell you any of my secrets because its no use to you anyway and I am sure you don’t really care you probably have bigger problems of your own, and there’s probably nothing you can say or do to make me happy well there’s one thing and I am sure you know what that something is but I will just smile at you with joy and be by your side whenever you need me.
Current Mood: fuckin sad
Current Music: Silence
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08:00 pm
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why do i cry so much :(
Sometimes I feel as if all my effort is not even close to enough. I try and try and do everything I can do to make my mom happy, I try not to talk back, I get home before she dose, I hardly ever go out, I don’t do drugs, have sex, smoke, I don’t drink, I clean the house everyday I never miss a day even when I feel sick. I wash dishes, clean counters, polish the wood, clean the glass, vacuum everyone’s room, do the laundry, clean everyone’s room even my moms, sweep and mop. What more do I have to do to be a good kid. I don’t understand. According to my mom I don’t follow the rules, I don’t know where I go wrong. My mom doesn’t understand me and I guess I don’t understand her. Sometimes my mom can say really hateful words towards me and I try not to cry showing her I am strong but I cant hold it in for so long I guess everything all my sadness builds up inside me that anything will tare me into pieces. I am always home alone my mom is never here never and she leaves me with my little brother, but even though I am sixteen years old I still get scared at times being home alone. I feel like such a horrible person for leaving my brother alone at times even though I was only next door he must have been terrified, but I am not is mother and I am tired of being his mom, I love him dearly but I want to be his sister. My mom goes out every weekend and if my little brother is here and if I want to go out its my job to find him a babysitter or else I don’t go out that sucks right. But my dad always comes to the rescue I love him. And everyone always tells me to just talk to her and tell her how I feel but its not that easy when the person your try to talk to doesn’t care nor understand. My mom I love her to death but sometimes I wonder do I really love her or do I love her because I have to.
And I cant believe I am even writing this telling everyone how I feel whatever. and lately I been sooo sad I sit there and class and do my work and tears roll down my face but quickly I wipe them off hoping no one saw and give a fake smile counting the minutes hours seconds people will notice the sadness behind my smile.
Current Mood: If only my wishes came true
Current Music: watching tv
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07:24 pm
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sorry pops no more POPS!!!!
I am absolutely trying not to be mean!!!!! I AM PUTTING IT IN THE NICEST WAY OK SO DON’T GET MAD
Please don’t call me pops anymore I mean I love love love that you call me pops but I don’t want to be something everyone else is!!!!!
Current Mood: drained
Current Music: whatever you want
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09:25 pm
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just thinking!!!♥
I close my eyes at night and pretend your next to me holding me tight even though you were here with me only a second ago. Tell me please why do I miss you when you were just here kissing my check.. All I ever want to do I sit and think about you wanting to hold only your hand. You’re the sweetest person ever.
I love the way you kiss my forehead
I love the way you say bye after every kiss slowly as I walk away you keep pulling me closer to you still wanting to give me one more kiss, but tell me what dose that one kiss do, what deferens dose it make.
I love the way you smile
I love the way you touch me
I love your hugs
I love the way you love me
I love the way your just a genuine person to everyone regardless of who they are
I love the way you call me pops
I love the way you squeeze me till I die
I love the way you try to tickle me lol
I love the way you play with my fingers when you hold my hand
I love it when you make fun of me lol
I love when you move my hair from my face
I love you as my boyfriend
But tell me why am I so scared, scared to loss you, scared to hurt you, scared to never see you again, sacred in the future you wont love me the way you do right now, sacred you’ll hurt me, scared to make you cry, scared that you wont call, sacred you wont care,.
But all I know at this exact moment I love you!!
Current Mood: loved
Current Music: jason mraz/ hey love
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06:49 pm
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i hate boys
dont talk to me if you have nothing good to say!!!!!
i hate school
i hate you
i hate being fat
Current Mood:  aggravated
Current Music: nothing
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01:46 pm
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la la la la la la la
Fuck
I got a myspace and I don’t know how to use it
And its all gay and ugly everyone’s else is cool at time like this I hate life
I am so frustrated I don’t know how to make It pretty!!!!
Dose anyone want to come over and help me I would be very thankful
Current Mood: frustrated
Current Music: cartoons
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12:38 pm
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i am so happy about many things but yet so sad
After a while you learn the differences between a friend and a best friend
Well your best friend knows everything about you and they can become evil and spill out all you secrets porously or on accident ….. But if that person is truly your best friend they would never tell your secrets nor hurt you………..but if you’re a good best friend you would forgive them and forget all about it……… so wtf what are the rules of being a best friend
I THINK THERES NO RULES!!!!!!
When do you know that someone truly loves you, when do you know you love someone
Dose love last forever
Do you believe in forever
Current Mood:  okay
Current Music: taking back sunday
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08:53 pm
[Link] | summer is i guess OK
so hows life everyone?
hows summer?
i hate school i hate school i hate school i hate school i hate school i hate school
i never want to go back
Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: Damien Rice - The Blower's Daughter
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10:44 am
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wow
Hello everyone
Yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am back form my vacation. I went to Orlando Florida, it was fun and very hot, I went to Animal kingdom, Disney world, Disney Quest, and to many beaches. I think going to the beach was my favorite I love putting my feet in the sand and building sand turtles. I lost my hearts♥ gymnastics bracelets in the ocean and I am truly sorry I feel super bad so I am going to order him a new one online. My vacation was grand but very long to long I was there for 9 days I missed everyone way to much (home sick). So I am very happy to be back.
♥Erika
Current Mood: i love love mikey
Current Music: Dashboard Confessionals - Hands Down
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07:13 pm
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this is for efarin my best friend!!!!!!!
I wonna make you smile when ever you are sad
Carry you around when your altruists is bad
Oo all I wonna do is grow old with you
I’ll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the ferniest brakes
Ooo it could be so nice growing old with you
I’ll miss you kiss(check)you give you my coat when you are cold
Need you feed you even let you hold the remote control
Let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink.....sorry i dont know that part
oo it could be so nice to grow old with you ♥
A POEM FOR YOU
You're the one who's by my side
when no one else is there.
You're the one I can always count on,
You always seem to care.
You help me through
the tough times,
and when I've lost all hope,
You cry with me at sad times,
and laugh at all my jokes.
You never seem to judge me
or ever put me down,
You put a smile on my face,
When ever you see a frown.
You're better than a brother,
You're more than just my friend,
You have a special place in my heart,
That's why your my Best Friend.
I TURLY LOVE YOU ♥
Current Mood: sad becuase we are fighting
Current Music: adam sandler - i wanna grow old with you
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12:55 pm
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GETTING BACK AT ERFAIN
Attention to the world guess what Efrain like JILL
How about that you cant erase it now
I LOVE YOU EFRAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Current Mood:  ha ha ha ha
Current Music: JASON MRAZ
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